On Being An Indigo Child

When I first came across the idea of being an indigo child, I was fascinated by this and began to identify myself as one the more I read about the signs of being one.

If you’re unfamiliar with the term, here are a few articles to enlighten you on the subject:

17 Signs You’re What’s Known As An ‘Indigo Child’

20 Reasons Why Indigo Children Feel Most Lost By Their Early 20s

8 Common Struggles Of Indigo Children

6 Things You’ll Only Understand If You’re What’s Known As An ‘Indigo Child’

Throughout my childhood, I was always the child who got “lost in her own little world” because I was highly reserved, more observant of other people’s core motivations than anyone knew, and desirous of expanding my understanding of how the world worked from a very unconventional and more profound perspective that isn’t conditioned by popular opinion or education.

As I got older, the signs became clearer to me. I didn’t fit in or share others’ complacent consumerist-driven views, I sought fulfillment over ego-driven accomplishments, I became fascinated with personality theories and being considered as part of a rare 1% of the population, I was too busy burying my nose in dystopian and post-apocalyptic fiction novels and anything that dealt with skepticism of the status quo, I wrote a lot about my personal struggles in a vulnerable way, I kept notebooks of lyrics that deeply resonated with me (especially songs about transcendence and simplicity), and I felt incredibly dissatisfied with resigning the rest of my life to working at a typical cutthroat place that crushed the human spirit and didn’t value who I was.

I struggled and felt lost. I felt like giving up. I made mistakes and experienced setbacks because I was too afraid to stand up for myself. I doubted who I was and who I could become in the future, but that’s because I thought I had to give up my inner self to meet the demands of a cruel and callous world. I was accused of being too sensitive and soft for survival. I wasn’t tough enough, I wasn’t competitive enough, and I wasn’t “smart enough.”

However, those were all lies and doubts that were to be expected when experiencing life as an indigo child. I didn’t need to torture myself or prevent myself from expressing genuine thoughts that were significant to me and others who experienced the same struggles. And the point of being an indigo child isn’t to give up or conform to the world, it’s to use your strong intuition, empathy, visionary mindset, and artistic abilities to help build a new world that puts fulfillment over greed, actualization over survival-of-the-fittest, and creativity over callousness. Though this presents a whole slew of seemingly unsurmountable challenges, indigo children are determined to push past harsh judgments from others in order to create something that no one had the foresight to envision. They aren’t in denial that the world is dying. They don’t expect to heal it or even be grand heroes, but rather, they want to pursue what they’re good at, refuse to participate in the rat-race for any longer than necessary, use their ingenuity to outsmart the powerful ones who seek to pit people against themselves, and build a beautiful life they love with the abilities they already have.

10 Incredibly Important Life Skills I Learned From Working At A Math Learning Center

For a significant part of my life, I worked at math-only learning center.

As a millennial, I know how competitive the job market is. And I know what it’s like to apply to 50 entry-level office jobs in a day on Indeed and not hear back from a single one. After graduating with a degree in Mathematics in 2016, I wasn’t sure how to put my education to good use. I wasn’t sure if I was competitive enough to work in finance, engineering, statistics, or information technology - and time has proven that deep down in my heart, I’ve shut the doors to those fields long ago (in high school, I thought about being a writer, but I didn’t think it was possible to step outside of the hobbyist stage, so I majored in something that others thought was more practical) and only realized it after completing my degree in a STEM field.

So naturally, I did something that didn’t seem like it was out of my reach in terms of skills, experience, and education - I applied to be an instructor at Mathnasium! All I wanted was some work experience and a way to help others. And I loved algebra and trigonometry so much that I couldn’t wait to review all those topics and share my enthusiasm with students who didn’t know their full potential and needed someone supportive to guide them through challenging problems.

I’ve found that despite being more reserved and quieter than other instructors (I’m definitely not the outgoing or bubbly type), I really enjoyed working with students, getting to understand how they think, and providing them with the skills they need to be more confident in their abilities to tackle math in school. It was an incredibly rewarding experience that wasn’t like anything else.

Here are 10 incredibly important things I’ve learned from working at Mathnasium:

  1. Time management

    The Mathnasium Way: How to manage my time effectively under time constraints and still provide quality instruction

    People are under the impression that tutoring is an “easy” job, but that’s not exactly true. I worked at the largest tutoring center in the state, and I can say for sure that I definitely felt challenged. I usually found myself working with seven or more students at a time, especially with middle and high school students who have more complicated problems, homework assignments, and even lengthy projects that they wanted me to go over with them. So I had to learn how to manage my time really, really well. I learned how to tell when students needed to be asked just a simple question to help them figure out how to solve a problem on their own or if they required an extensive explanation (a walkthrough of steps that they probably never learned in school). On top of that, I also needed to monitor when students arrived, how much time they had left for their sessions, and when they needed to switch to homework. In the beginning, I had a lot to grapple with, but I’ve found that I improved a lot on time management the more I got used to working with more students (I even had a day when I worked with 12 students at a time).

  2. Situational awareness

    The Mathnasium Way: Keeping track of students, what they’re working on, who needed help, and generally, how they were feeling about their learning session

    Teaching at Mathnasium wasn’t like having one small class. I typically worked with eight students at a time, so it was more like having eight classes of one because they all were working on something different based on what kinds of math skills they needed most improvement on. I needed to be aware of times when I saw a student struggling or getting stuck on a page for an unreasonable amount of time, when to step in, and how I could best help them based on their current understanding of the topic. I had to keep track of when students felt disengaged and find a way to present the problem in a different light so that they can be more motivated to complete their assignment.

  3. Flexibility

    The Mathnasium Way: Switching gears in my brain by switching back and forth between multiple topics in math (due to each student at a table having customized learning plans)

    Because each student had a customized learning plan and a whole binder full of worksheets, I’ve learned how to switch gears very quickly. One student might be working on the law of sines and another student might be working on triangle proportions and then another student might be working on the quadratic formula and another student might be doing SAT practice. Every time I transitioned from working with one student to another, my mind had to switch to a new topic at the snap of two fingers. It was overwhelming at times, but I’ve gotten used to switching back and forth between hundreds of different types of math problems, so it really helped me build a quick mind and strengthen my ability to solve a variety of different problems at a rapid pace.

  4. Teamwork

    The Mathnasium Way: Working cooperatively with other instructors, helping them out when necessary, and learning from them as well

    I’ve learned about the importance of teamwork. Sometimes, when the tutoring center got too crowded (100+ students during the busiest hours), instructors had to work together to accommodate every student so that no one fell behind and that students were getting the help they needed. This meant I had to help out with check-ins whenever some other instructor was busy with explaining something to another student, and sometimes I’ve had to receive help as well. There were also times when another instructor needed help on a problem and a better explanation/perspective, so I was able to step in and provide that.

  5. Receiving constructive criticism

    The Mathnasium Way: Receiving feedback and learning about ways I can become a better instructor through meetings with the center director

    Taking constructive criticism and applying it was an incredibly essential life skill I picked up. There would be meetings with the center director every six months and we would go over what I was doing well, what I needed to improve on, and how to be more aware of the company’s objectives. As someone who self-deprecates a lot and thinks I’m worse than I am, I’ve learned that the center director saw me as a valuable part of the team and showed positive reinforcement.

  6. Self-Improvement

    The Mathnasium Way: How to improve myself and reach goals - provide quality instruction, help students improve and have fun, maintain safety of the facility, and meet certain requirements for using teaching strategies as outlined in the training binder

    This took a lot of self-awareness and deep reflection regarding what I could be doing better to align with the company’s mission. There was much to be done on any given day and prioritizing was definitely something I picked up while instructing students, doing what the lead instructor told me to do, and ensuring that students felt safe, welcomed, and relaxed.

  7. Empathy

    The Mathnasium Way: Connecting with and showing empathy for students

    As an introvert, I got to step out of my comfort zone a bit. As I became one of the designated instructors for upper-level math (Algebra 1 and up), I bonded with these students, empathized with their struggles, and soon became a favorite instructor of theirs (a lot of the time, students would request me to be there instead of some other instructor, which definitely made me feel valued and loved). Whenever I doubted my abilities to connect with students, they affirmed that I was doing a great job in not only explaining math, but also in showing understanding and compassion. This was one of the most rewarding things I’ve ever experienced.

  8. Impact

    The Mathnasium Way: Understanding that I have made an impact in students’ math learning experience more than I realized

    I was told that I did make a difference in enriching students’ education and that my teaching style combined with the Mathnasium strategies definitely improved the way students felt about math. I did more than just make math easier for students, I did it in a way that no future instructor would be able to replicate.

  9. Strategic communication

    The Mathnasium Way: Providing succinct explanations, understanding how to frame questions so that students think about what they already know, and using visual representations when necessary

    I was able to apply my knowledge of various topics and understand which strategies were the most effective and simplest to communicate. I also learned that drawings and diagrams were extremely useful, and they helped students think outside of the box with similar problems.

  10. Quantitative life skills

    The Mathnasium Way: Clever tricks to do calculations mentally in practical, everyday situations that require math

    Using number sense, I found more effective strategies to solve percents, calculate sales taxes and discounts, find volume and area, and generally be aware of when I can apply math to everyday life in ways I never thought of before.

It's Time To Say Goodbye: Have I Given Up On Songwriting As Well?

Back in June, I discussed why I decided to give up on writing a sprawling literary masterpiece (you can read it on Medium). And now I’m here to talk about my aspiration of writing a song album and how my views of it have changed over the years.

I’ve always been a poet and I’ve played piano since the age of 5. However, I never considered merging my two passions - writing lyrical poetry and composing a melody for it - until I started becoming a huge fan of John Denver and Taylor Swift (who still are musical and lyrical influences to me today). I listened to these artists and thought I could write something very aligned with my own perspective and merge the styles of these two seemingly different (and oftentimes polar opposite) artists.

After downloading Spotify, I discovered dozens of artists that immediately clicked with me. I’m a very selective person when it comes to listening to music, and for reasons unknown, I could tell if I would end up being a huge fan of an artist or not and if an artist has the “it” factor (a very elusive combination of natural talent, a resonant message, spot-on musical arrangements that match the lyrics, and a melody that sticks with you). There wasn’t any in-betweens. Listening to more artists inspired me to write more and become a more versatile songwriter.

When I was in college, I wanted to write a song album. I even have a copy of 14 song lyrics I wrote in 2014, which was my very first attempt at writing a complete album (now that I looked over it, it wasn’t that great at all and could’ve been way better). I arranged guitar chords for those lyrics. I even got to record one song at a music studio (after setting aside a certain amount every week from my leftover lunch money). In retrospect, even when my dream of having a song album on iTunes never came to fruition, I learned how difficult putting together a full album would be if you’re not signed to a record label, especially when you’re a no-name artist who’s just starting out and has never performed live before.

Point being, the song album was a significant part of my aspirations (possibly competing for the number one spot, against my dream of writing a 1,000-page modern literary fiction novel).

But after I graduated from college, my dream of writing songs grew weaker, until I stopped doing it altogether (because of, you know, real world adult problems). I never stopped writing poetry, but the goal of writing an epic song album didn’t really excite me the way it did back in my college days.

I realize now that it might sound like I’m talking about giving up on songwriting and putting my childish dreams to rest for good.

But that’s not the case.

What I’ve given up on is the false hope of gaining thousands of followers. Of performing live. Of being the next Maggie Rogers. Of going viral. Of making millions of dollars from song album royalties alone. Of having my face in a magazine and having articles written about me. Of setting up a home recording studio and learning how to produce something that’s radio-worthy.

I still like to write lyrics. I still like to write songs. It’s an art form that I’m still passionate about. But I’ve given up on the ideas and expectations surrounding it.

I realize that I’m not a good singer. I’m not a good audio engineer. In fact, I don’t know anything about how to use audio recording equipment or how to make recordings sound like what’s on the radio (and those skills definitely can’t be acquired in a few months).

I do want to make an album this year. But it won’t be slick and polished like radio hits. It won’t have a huge marketing team behind it or a very press-worthy story to garner the attention of millions of people overnight. And that’s okay.

I want it to be something simple. Just my voice and one instrument. From my heart. Recorded on an iPhone. Something like “His Daughter” by Molly Kate Kestner.

All I want for myself is to immerse in a state of flow when I’m writing it. And fully experience the internal feeling of creative freedom and complete resonance that no external rewards can ever measure up to. I am doing it purely for personal enjoyment and even if it never gets past my bedroom, it’ll still be a worthwhile experience.

Songwriting is still a very significant part of me. It’s something that has a firm grip on my heart and can’t be easily gotten rid of. But I’ve grown and realized that all along, I love songwriting and not having a professional recording or a solid reputation doesn’t invalidate who I am as a creative individual. If I write songs, I am a songwriter. If I complete a song album after many hours of honing in on my skills to make these songs the very best they can be, I’m a genuine songwriter that has the power to it happen.

My songs may be shared. Or maybe they won’t. Both are okay. But getting it done and creating it in a way that best reflects who I am is all that matters.

If you’re going to do anything, make sure it’s purely for personal enjoyment, and you’ll undoubtedly find a way to make it happen.

That’s the mark of a true artist.

What Does It Mean To Be A Polymath?

Ever since I was a child, I've always been someone with too many interests and performed well in most subjects around the same level (but with English and Math at the very top). I enjoyed reading fictional stories from a wide range of genres and then that love for fiction eventually grew into a love for exploring a variety of topics in literature, music theory, music history, business, entrepreneurship, physics, mathematics, economics, technology, philosophy, spirituality, art, and the interconnection of these things that have the potential to form the foundation of a more ideal future, or at least a better tomorrow than today.

I started reading a few articles on being a modern-day polymath and began to wonder if I am one too.

What causes me to consider myself a polymath?

  1. My interests include writing, literature, poetry, songwriting, music, graphic design, visual arts, web design, digital entrepreneurship, spiritual prophecies, religion, history from alternative perspectives, mathematics, simple philosophy, human behavior, and the general idea of what technology will be like in the future (but I am certainly no engineer or research scientist).

  2. As a blogger, I love to write, but I have an artistic and mathematical approach to things. I pay close attention to detail, yet I view things also from a bird's eye view. I like being equally logical as I am creative.

What are the reasons why I might not be a polymath?

  1. There's too much I don't know.

  2. I do not have enough in-depth or sophisticated knowledge about everything.

  3. I haven't made any groundbreaking discoveries or done extensive research that would revolutionize some aspect of the way humanity evolves and thrives.

  4. I am just a girl with too many interests and nothing substantial to support them (too much breadth and lack of depth).

Types of Polymaths

There are genius polymaths (who are at the pinnacle of society that either have made history or have the potential to make history), expert polymaths (who are currently tackling significant projects with extensive research and are renowned experts in three to five fields), apprentice polymaths (those who have a high level of expertise and have more in-depth knowledge than baby polymaths), basic polymaths (those who are talented in and are interested in five or more things and have the ability to synthesize topics from diverse fields), and people who aren't polymaths at all. If you're well-rounded and have the capacity to learn and apply what you have learned to a personal endeavor (regardless of whether it's well-known or not), then you are a polymath.

What are the minimum qualifications for a basic polymath?

  1. Know about or at least have the natural curiosity to learn about a variety of topics.

  2. Be able to connect seemingly unrelated topics, synthesize points from a variety of fields to form a very compelling argument, and be able to discern the essentials from the extraneous in order to present complex pieces of information and profound ideas in a simple and understandable way.

  3. You need to be good at math (side note: I've seen writers and philosophical bloggers that claim to be polymaths, yet they show no evidence of being good at math or science at all and in fact can only recite historical facts about scientists but cannot solve a math problem or apply any math to their lives). *Fun fact - I actually majored in Math, so I am wary of those who claim to be polymaths when they are only good at communicating.

  4. You need to be a good writer. It doesn't mean you're a popular blogger or famous published writer, but you do have to love writing, be above average, and be able to form your own thoughts and think analytically, yet also do so with style and a distinct writing voice.

  5. You need to have talent in at least one art form (but preferably two or more), be it playing a musical instrument, composing, writing songs, singing, theater, drawing, digital art, filmography, videography, or poetry.

  6. Understand human nature from a perspective that isn't conditioned by popular opinion. Be able to analyze others, predict patterns in behaviors and ways of thinking based on a few cues, understand where they're coming from, and identify core motivations.

  7. You need to be very introspective and self-aware. Even when you overthink yourself and tend to ruminate over what you did, it's far better to be like that than to be oblivious to your own feelings, thoughts, and behaviors.

  8. Have an interest in spirituality, religion, and philosophy. And know a lot about at least two to three spiritual forms, religions, and philosophies.

  9. Understand economics and marketing and be able to avoid being swayed by people that manipulate you for money (or in some other cases, sinister purposes). You are a conscious consumer and a very wary one too.

  10. Have a desire to evolve and thrive, not just survive as a mundane, socially-conditioned consumer that only thinks about jobs, money, being included in a social circle, and material gain.

  11. Your political views are not narrowly defined by either the Democrats or Republicans. You do not enthusiastically rally for either side, nor do you engage in mass hysteria or anger-fueled, emotion-based arguments. Your political view is generally a synthesis of a variety of political systems throughout history and with reasons to back up your argument on why you think a certain system is more effective and/or ideal.

So are you a polymath?

 

8 Things People Of The Present Do Differently

It is no secret that humans are chronic worriers, though some more than others. People who have a hard time letting go of the past definitely worry a lot and overthink all the things they’ve done, which they believe people are judging them for, much to the detriment of their mental health.

But the truth is that it all doesn’t matter. Even when the past has its firm grip on you, there’s nothing beneficial about putting yourself in fear of your future based on what you did wrong in the past, and there is always a chance to change in the present. To start over. To be able to see things for what they are instead of through a lens of dark and unresolved emotions. There’s nothing more freeing than having the ability to pursue anything without any guilt of the past holding you back.

And here are some things people of the present do differently:

  1. They jump right into the things they intend to do on any given day without thinking of all the things that could go wrong, based on something that happened before.

  2. They don’t worry about instantaneous perfection or how others might perceive them because they recognize that in the moment, all that matters is keeping the momentum going.

  3. They are incredibly grateful for where they are now, even when it’s not what they expected in the past. Even when they haven’t fulfilled every wish or whimsy of their past selves.

  4. They’ve come to accept the past for what it is, not because they’ve repressed their memories, but because they’ve allowed themselves to feel what they feel and spend conscious effort in reflecting on certain events to see where they can make room for continuous growth.

  5. They don’t accuse or blame others for their past misfortunes. They recognize that an argument is ineffective when it brings up past events over and over again, especially when it’s used to attack someone’s character and deficiencies.

  6. They get more done. Because they aren’t burdened by who they were before and the expectations that came with it, they are able to go about their days with less time spent on overthinking their decisions and wondering if anything will go wrong.

  7. They plan for the future in a healthy way. They know the importance of having a few major goals that would help them thrive, but they aren’t obsessed with having every little detail planned out or getting upset with how much more work they still need to do to attain that future. Instead, they realize that while having an idea is helpful for being prepared, they ultimately cannot have the final say in how the future will turn out and they’ve embraced uncertainties.

  8. They love who they are and practice self-care by giving themselves enough to enjoy on any given day.

Why Your Dreams Are Making You Discontent

If you’re a perpetual daydreamer, you know what it feels like to spend hours and hours creating a life you’d love in your head (maybe while looking images from Pinterest or blogs). And you probably know how painful it is to stare bleakly into space and being either bored or anxious with your present reality after being swept away from a daydream in which your current struggles are either smaller or nonexistent.

You might think the world outside of you, your current life, or external factors are making you unhappy, bored, or anxious. And you might be thinking that daydreaming about the somedays is going to help you manifest that daydream into real life if those dreams should propel you to work harder to get there.

I’m sorry to break it to you, but your dreams are making you discontent. They’re making you depressed, ungrateful, and downright lazy.

Daydreaming is a coping mechanism which hides your underlying fear of never being good enough, never doing enough, and never proving yourself enough.

Daydreaming diverts your attention from pressing problems that you’re too afraid to face. And these problems often relate to careers, money, and generally having lack of control over these things.

People are motivated by pleasure and comfort - they want to reduce the time spent operating in fight-or-flight mode (which often occurs when they face harsh circumstances, toxic work environments, condescending people, and emergency situations).

But some people aren’t merely satisfied with just pleasure and comfort. These kind of people are motivated by purpose. They want to do something useful so that they feel like their lives have meaning. They want to do it in their own way and not be told how to go about it.

And the best way to do both is to do something you’re good at that challenges you (without being too perplexing), work with supportive and like-minded people, and make a good enough of a livable income to avoid living just in survival mode. Just so you have more control over your life.

However, the truth is, this is a reality for only a few people. Most people are barely hanging by a thread and have no hope of recovery if an emergency should occur. Some people can live comfortably, but they are miserable in their jobs in toxic work environments. And only the few at the very top control the world and keep getting richer for it.

Daydreaming might seem like a reasonable thing to do. To avoid this reality. To avoid the bleakness of the future and all of the horrible things that will happen to the majority of people who are helpless against problems that are too big for them. It feels good for a time, but then it slowly seeps out of you and leaves you empty.

But like it or not, we all have to deal with Social Darwinism in our everyday lives. The strongest and fittest will survive, conquer, and thrive. Those who have no talents, no persistence, no access to opportunities, and no emotional support will end up living in destitution and without any hope of overpassing the strong ones. That’s how life works. That’s how it works in the animal kingdom. And that’s how it works with humanity. Toil, struggle, and more toil and struggle. An endlessly raging battle.

Your daydreams are making you discontent because you have no way of making them real since there are financial, time, and physical constraints. You have no control over situations because much of success depends on being accepted by the right people who can give you opportunities to prove yourself and keep building upon what you already have. You have to prove that you’re good enough, regardless of what your dreams might be. Your dreams don’t matter to people because they want to know how you can help them, not how you can use your dreams to comfort yourself.

You need to shift your awareness from a distant future to right now. And ask yourself honestly how you can improve yourself every day so that you act accordingly whenever difficult situations arise and whenever you have to prove your worth to people in order to ascend higher than you ever would be if you just remain stagnant.

No matter what’s going on in your life, this is a reality that most people have to face. Following your dreams is not the answer. Believing that you’re special and deserving of opportunities is not the answer.

In order to succeed, you need to be able to solve problems in the best way possible with your given constraints. You need to adapt to your environment for a time until you become good enough to make it adapt to you.

In the end, all we have is what’s within us and the more we’re able to evolve into more ideal versions of ourselves, then perhaps we can all have more control over our lives so that we’re not just drifting off into dreamland without facing problems head-on.

And this is what we all have to learn.

A Minimalist Lists Out Her Belongings

Although I’m still not at the point where I can fit everything I own into one suitcase, I have simplified my physical belongings to the essentials and there really is something therapeutic about having all of my belongings right in front of me and being able to see exactly what I have.

Clothing

6 short-sleeved tees (white, black, 2 sky blue, dark blue, light gray)

7 long-sleeved tees (3 black, navy, stone blue, purple, blue stripes)

black tank dress

black shirt dress

stone blue wrap dress

sky blue embroidered dress

gray t-shirt dress

olive green t-shirt dress

4 camis (2 black, 1 white, 1 sky blue)

3 pairs of black leggings

3 sweatshirts (black, sky blue, gray)

2 cashmere sweaters (black and sky blue)

navy & white striped acrylic sweater

sky blue cotton sweater

military green utility jacket

black puffer jacket

cream white down jacket

underwear and socks

Winter Accessories

crocheted cream white wool hat (handmade)

basic navy hat

navy wool gloves

purple ski gloves

3-in-1 white and blue gloves

gray earmuffs

Accessories

black baseball cap

light blue resin ring

Shoes

white sneakers

black and white striped flip-flops

simple black flats

Bags

purse (black, white, and blue pattern)

teal backpack

2 duffle bags (blue, purple)

Technology

21.5” iMac

phone

blue iPod Touch 5

Canon T6

white LED desk lamp

Instrument

Guitalele

Notebooks/Miscellaneous

white marble journal

blue bullet journal

dark blue spiral-bound journal

2 composition books

notepad

forms and documents folder

college diploma

various office supplies: pens, pencils, colored pencils, stapler, erasers

Stuffed Animals

Not listed because who’s interested in those? I have a bunch of mice. They all fit into one blue duffle bag.

Why aren’t there any CDs or Books?

I use my computer and phone to read and listen to music. I’ve digitized my media collection.

Why I Deleted My Twitter

*Update: I reactivated my Twitter, but much of my thoughts and criticisms on it are still true

So I did something I’ve wanted to do for quite some time and got rid of Twitter!

This June, I made a Twitter account that ended up gaining only 10 followers. Back in the day (circa 2012), it was easy for me to gain a high number of followers (I think I had about 100 when I first made a Twitter).

Nowadays, it’s so incredibly common for bloggers, social media specialists, and digital marketers to say that you need to be active on all social media in order to get more sales, be seen as competent enough to be employed, and show how relevant you are in your industry. They all advocate having the big three social media accounts (Facebook, Twitter, Instagram), but if you can add more (Tumblr, Snapchat, Pinterest, etc.) then that would show that you’re social media-savvy and even better than someone who has only three accounts.

I have a problem with this idea. I find it incredibly exhausting when I have to update three social media accounts with the same information. I also find that Twitter is a complete waste of time because I gain nothing but spam from being on there.

As a new blogger and someone who’s just starting out in the most competitive year yet for bloggers and content creators who also wear many hats (editor, digital marketer, social media manager, graphic designer, SEO analyst, web designer, CEO, etc.), it is incredibly discouraging to keep up with something that I don’t gain any value from, and I don’t want to promote my Twitter account because nobody wants to be sold to and there are already too many people trying to promote their own social media that it comes across as spammy and attention-seeking. Too many people want to be a celebrity on the Internet and everyone wants to gain a follow from everyone. I also don’t think it’s effective to spread myself too thin across three social media accounts because I’d rather focus on setting myself apart from the crowd of bloggers, have more quiet time unplugged, and enjoy my life without the pressure to be active on a social media account that serves no purpose for my long-term goals.

Here are 15 reasons why I deleted my Twitter for good:

  1. Spam and incredibly meaningless comments/conversations

  2. Disingenuous and one-sided relationships (I’m following you only because I think you want to follow me, but if you don’t follow me within the next two weeks, I’ll unfollow you)

  3. I use relevant hashtags, but they aren’t as effective as they were in 2012. I have probably tweeted 100 times and only gained 10 followers.

  4. The same information can easily be posted on Instagram (which I do prefer using)

  5. I prefer to read long blog posts, thoughtful essays, and articles. I also prefer to read short quotes when they’re presented in a visually-appealing manner (hello, Instagram).

  6. So much pressure to be everywhere and be everything to everyone

  7. I have no interest in seeing redundant information that I can get somewhere else

  8. Hate-fueled debates and mass hysteria

  9. Annoying GIFs and trashy, poorly-edited images that aren’t relevant

  10. There’s the pressure to follow the same people three times (Facebook, Instagram, Twitter) just to show that I’m a loyal fan, but I don’t even read their tweets or go to their Facebook page

  11. Relying on Twitter for updates is a lazy practice, and I think that using Instagram Stories is a more engaging and efficient way to keep followers updated

  12. I need to go to bit url every time I want to post a link (for me, this is a small annoyance)

  13. According to Derek Thompson in “The Unbearable Lightness of Tweeting,” only 1% click on links to articles. Just 1% and spending an hour on Twitter trying to look smart and relevant does not justify itself because who really cares about the underdogs when the superstars get all the attention?

  14. I’m the type of person that prefers visiting a writer’s website directly for updates, not Twitter, and I personally believe that you’re a more loyal follower if you visit a few of your favorite writers’ websites instead of mindlessly following a bunch of people you don’t really care about

  15. I am not against companies using Twitter, I just don’t personally find any use for it myself because I have more essential things to do

The Universe of Nothing: A Short Story

In the end, there is nothing. There is no sea of nothing. There is neither absence nor the presence of nothing, but nothing.

The sun that has once emitted its cosmic rays delivering its light for all to see shines no more and has faded from a glorious star to piles of dust. The moon that has enchanted man and living creatures since the dawn of time with its haunting, luminous glow has crumbled into rocks and ashes. The stars that once shone from millions of light years away have faded back to the dust that once danced with sparkling crowns in unity across the sky. The planets that once revolved around the sun no longer exist. Perhaps they have fallen out of the orbit before the great hole in the center of the universe swallowed every celestial body that has ever existed. The Universe has folded itself into nothing, yet the blackness, the absence of the Universe, knows no bounds.

A lone being stands on the other side of this hole. He lives on, breathing, dreaming, pondering…Lost in his thoughts, he turns his head around, hoping to find something familiar, at least a fragment of a lost memory in the empty blackness surrounding him. He calls out the names of his loved ones, but the void swallows them whole, while a sense of despair washes over him like the black waves of the sea of shadows…the shadows of oblivion. The oblivion that has haunted him night and day, but time has forgotten all what once was remembered.

There is no universe to exist upon, yet he finds it paradoxical that he is still in existence. To ensure that this is so, he takes a gulp of air, inhales, and exhales…But if the Universe has ceased to exist, there is no air to breathe…and he shouldn’t be feeling what he is currently perceiving to be feeling...

Yet I am still breathing…I feel the rush of air in my lungs, though there is none…Why?

His mind spins. But his body is still.

His bones creak with age and the weight of the universe, yet his youthful visage forms a blank stare. He is breathing…yet he wonders why he is still breathing if there is no air left to breathe…if all of the air around him has collapsed into nothing…

Why am I here? Why do I breathe if there is nothing to breathe? Why do I live if the Universe is neither living nor dead? Why am I aware of my own consciousness when I should be experiencing the consciousness of the state of being unaware of this state of mind? Am I so lost that I am spinning around in oblivion with nothing to reach for, nothing to dream of…nothing to exist for.

He closes his eyes and lets his mind wander above the blackness his hollow body is imprisoned in…